Master Key Experience-Week 23

We have been reading Scroll 6 now for almost three weeks.  Rethinking perhaps how we see our emotions and how they affect us.  Understanding that they will flow and ebb…watching for darkness to turn to light, sorrow to turn to joy, even laughter will change to sadness-and back to joy….always changing…knowing they are always changing…acknowledging the changes…taking control!

Thoughts charged with feeling lead to actions.  Og says that “Weak is he who permits his thoughts to control his action:  strong is he who forces his actions to control his thoughts.”  Could it be that when we let our thoughts (emotions) run amok, we are reacting instead of determining our course?  In Proverbs 25:28 it says, “Like a city that is broken into and without walls is a man who has no control over his spirit.”  We are to control the currents of emotion that flow through us.  As a two year old who wants their own way, and will throw a tantrum to get it, our emotions can try to control us into becoming a very cheap copy of who we are meant to be!  We must be in charge of us…

We are so close….to our Commencement.  The word sounds so…official!  The actual definition means-a beginning, a start.  A young bird sits on the edge of the nest…preparing to do-what it was meant to do-fly!  I am perched on the edge…I’ve tested my “wings” and I’m ready to fly!  Our celebration and kick off next week will be the beginning of the rest of my life!  Everything I’ve heard, seen, done, learned has led up to this point in my life!

 

Get ready world…here I come!

 

 

 

 

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Master Key Experience-Week 22a

This week many of our class have gone into a time of silence.  I’m looking forward to being able to spend two to three days in silence-thinking, pondering, discovering, listening…. Although it is not to be just yet, still I long for that retreat from the noise!  The hustle and bustle of everyday… the cacophony of sounds that can be so loud they block out the sound of our own thoughts… Oh for silence!  Shhh…I need some quiet so I can ponder-sort my thoughts- figure out what I’m trying to think!!

The last few weeks have allowed me to see how far I’ve come, and I don’t want to regress to that place of numbness…of being the hamster in the wheel day after day…going at a hectic pace but going nowhere!  I have an even greater determination to continue what I’ve begun!  I will invest the time daily for the me that I’m becoming!  I’m kicking it up a notch to finish strong what I have started!

All of the pieces are slipping into place.  The hazy borders around the pictures are beginning to come into focus.  What once seemed impossible, now seems to fall within the realm of possible,  no-probable, no-a planned happening waiting to be born!

 

 

 

Master Key Experience-Week 22

This week we have moved from “I will live this day as if it is my last, ” to “Today I will be master of my emotions.”  As we continue to journey through our reading of Og, we find another lesson to ensure that “failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.”  (Greatest Salesman, Chapter 6)

Living each day as if it were my last has led me to realize the value of each moment of each day.  Every second that ticks past  on the clock is one tick closer to my end-the end of the good I can do, the end of the kind words I can speak, the end of my service to my family and to others.  I must be vigilant to use each moment to the fullest that I can!

Now I begin to focus on mastering my emotions.  How true it is that our emotions move in waves-ever changing!  From joyful to sad to enthusiastic to blue-ever flowing in and out on the tides of our days.  How I begin my day will determine how I approach others, how I speak to those around me, and how others perceive me and my intentions toward them.  How important that I reflect joy, kindness, peace, brightness and enthusiasm to those around me!  As I choose to serve those near me, I must also choose to overcome those forces which would try to bring me down-to discourage me and cause me to make those around me stumble on my emotional baggage!

I must master my emotions, keeping the pendulum centered so that I don’t become filled with pride, overconfidence, or even a sense of superiority!  I may demonstrate a sense of satisfaction in my work-but I know it is due to working with diligence and mastering my work.  I may be confident-but that grew from working hard to succeed, and by overcoming challenges.  I may have skills, but they were developed with much practice over time!

As we are nearer to the end of this journey now, than the beginning, I see what a great distance I have come…. Things can never be as they were, and that is good!  I will continue-to read, to embrace, to sit, to challenge myself, to grow!

I will continue on this road that is less travelled!

       

Master Key Experience-Week 21

What a great week of looking for the miracles that surround us every day!  I was truly grateful to be reminded that there is no mundane… When we go to work, and do the same thing every day in a variety of ways-we have a brand new day to do the same thing in a variety of ways!

Every breathe is a miracle-repeated 50-60 times a minute, 60 minutes an hour, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week… We are ever a breathe away from the last day of our life-and yet… the miracles continue!  Our bodies work and mostly we don’t have to remember a thing!  Breath, blink, swallow, heartbeat, and again, and again… This is definitely not a random collection of cells that decided to hang out together!

I am reminded that,

“You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb.  I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.”  Psalm 139:13-14

Our mind is designed to remember-language spoken, body movements, lessons learned, skills developed, emotion, smells…LIFE!  Sometimes the things we remember are tainted by error, misconceptions, perceptions that are skewed…. We must visit those things that have constrained us-ask “why did that affect me as it did?”

For years I was afraid to walk along the sidewalk beside a hedge!  Why?  Well, my brothers thought it would be funny to take off ahead of me when we were walking our dog after dark one night.  I was six years old!  As I approached the end of the hedge-of course they jumped out at me and scared me half to death!  That affected me for many years… I still tend to cross the road, or walk on the edge of the road!  The point is, there was a real, justified fear!

For years I wouldn’t answer questions in class because one time I answered a question and a few of the kids in the class laughed at me.  I was devastated!     This was an instance of hurt ego…. “Let it go, Deb!”  Move on….

I am appreciating being an observer.  When things happen and I start to respond I am getting quicker at seeing my response from a neutral place, and asking questions of myself.  Why do I feel the way I do?  How should I be responding?  I pray that virtue would radiate from my life-is this response the reflection that I want others to see?  The virtues that we look for each week do get easier to see and recognize as the week goes on… Observing-not giving opinions allows me to recognize the power of my mind!  I choose the thoughts that I percolate!  I choose to replace thoughts that will not benefit those around me, or myself!  I choose….!  What  a liberating thought to think!

A I consider the many miracles all around me every day, I am reminded of….

The Miracle that is Me…

Master Key Experience-Week 20

We are in week 20, ready to begin week 21 in the Master Keys!  We have been learning to change lifelong patterns of behaviour and thought.  It doesn’t matter how long we have held on to unproductive patterns-the good news is that we CAN break away from the slavery of those things!  Wow!!  What a relief!!

 

We don’t have to continue the vicious cycle of pain, failure and being stuck that has held us back from our true identity for so long.   By changing what we believe about ourselves, we can create new patterns of thought and behaviour.  I began looking at the power of our thoughts and words about 4 years ago, and was trying to discover how I could change the chorus of thoughts in my mind for the long haul-replace the negative self talk in way that would allow me to demonstrate who I really was!

 

This week especially I have been asking myself the question, “What would the person I intend to become do next?”  My answers come more quickly all the time!  I should be be doing ….. I should take care of ……..  I find that I am listening to…me!   The exciting thing is that this “me” is prodding me to-get things I need to do-done… NOW!  I love this!  The hesitations and the uncertainties are slipping away!….

 

The person I “intend to become” is getting closer all the time!

Master Key Experience-Week 19

I must say that I am really appreciating Og’s Scroll 5!  “I will live this day as if it is my last.”

It brings to remembrance a song I first heard as a teenager… “If this were the last day of my life, I would not cry, ’cause I’ve been waitin’ for it…”    

As I focus on the day-today-I am reminded that I must live each day to its’ fullest.

There can be no thought for what happened before-it is gone and cannot be changed.  There can be no fear of/for tomorrow-it is not here and may never come to be… all I have is right here and right now!  I can make my plans to accomplish that which I may do, always knowing that when the time comes-the “now“, those plans may change.  I may have the blessing of doing something even greater!

As I consider the gift of today, I cherish the moments spent with family!  I work wholeheartedly at my job!  I demonstrate kindness as I am able, random acts of kindness when I can sneak them in!  I find the persistence of the habits we have been working on bearing fruit!  I am less willing to “put off” doing the things I should-more apt to “do it now” and with less fear…(it’s the phone!)

 

My mind is quick to know what must be done…and the rest of me is following more quickly….

Loving this…less hesitation between the thought and what it takes to get it done!

 

Master Key Experience-Week 18

Another week of digging through my mind…

 

 

tossing out old thoughts that don’t serve me and

reinforcing thought patterns that will grow me.

 

We have been reading obituaries and asking ourselves three questions.  What would that person give to change places with me and have 1 more day?  My hope is to live my life in such a way-so much in the now, that there are not unspoken words that should have been said or undone deeds that should have been done.  I look to the future and plan with purpose and passion, remembering that NOW is the only time I have to live… The word of encouragement and hope, the small (or large) kindness that I can do for someone, the sacrifice for the benefit of another-to make my world a better and kinder place.

 

Who can I let know how grateful I am for their presence today if it is my last day?  Being aware of those who surround me each day…my family, my coworkers, the cashier at the grocery store, the neighbour walking their dog down my street…. really seeing them…. acknowledging their presence…. is a gift I can give to them, and a gift I will receive from them!  Every one of us is significant!  Each of us matters!  We are all miracles!

 

The last question… How will I behave today to finish the masterpiece of my life elegantly?  I have to make sure that the thoughts I think are filled with love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faith, humility and self-control.  If my mind is full of these thoughts, then I will behave in a way that serves others.  This is the greatest gift that I can give to those around me!

Scroll 5 states, “I will live this day as if it is my last.”  This hits close to home for me, as I have been talking to my brother about death and dying-he is in his last weeks or days.  In a conversation with him a few weeks ago, he made the comment, “I am looking to eternity, while I wait to die.”  I wonder… does he have regrets?  Did he finish the things he wanted to do with his life?  Are there things that he wishes he could still accomplish?  What is the legacy he is leaving?

I have asked myself the question, “What will my epitaph say?”  I want to live today-in the now, to the fullest!  I want to remember to say all the things that fill my heart about those who surround me each day!  I want to serve others, to lighten their load.  I choose to be the best me I can be… every day… so that when I reach my last day, I will have given my best me-to my world!

 

For each day I am gifted, I will live my best, and at the end I will give thanks for the blessing of another day!